圣诞节就在下个星期~
写卡片的时候
突然觉得好难过~
回忆起刚来到这个学校的时候~
回忆起和朋友在一起的时光~
有哭有笑！
磕磕碰碰~
至少我们曾经都为了那一小片的梦想而努力过~
虽然也许那并不能成为梦想！
因为对于现在的我们来说~
有着更确定的梦想！

I do really love KAPCQ a lot.

Mr. Viola gave me the music book today,

he hopes I could practice and play concert with his group

but when I got the music, I just realized I almost forgot everything.

However, I'm scare to say I don't know how to play those.

Therefore, I must practice hard hard hard hard......................

At least I have time to practice right now...maybe...

GOD please bless me*****

I think I need to tell my parents I need a violin as my X-Xmas gift.

Just like Teacher Sang said life is a bring-and-buy sale.

Why do we say that?

We need to go to college therefore we need to write college essay

so show them what kind of person we are.

It's like we sell ourselves.

If the colleges like us, then they will "buy" us, if they don't, you know...

AHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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give up today...my throat hearts

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I didn't sleep well yesterday because of nightmare.

It's really scare me. Just like the reality.

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 Today is not happy without any reason.

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She told me a secret. but I was not surprised.

Maybe I knew that secret long time ago...

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Knew my new SAT score,

HUM, no surprised. I decide to keep this secret,

so plz if ppl see this article don't ask me any more.(I appreciated...)

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I think I really care about the result...

but I never say I care...

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I should study hard if I want to achieve my GOAL.

but what my goal is?

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Go to a good college, get a good car, have my own clinic,

then marry a rich guy, have a happy family, be a gentlewoman...

HUM~~I hope I could achieve it if this is my goal!!!

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Now, What should I do???

Well... I cannot say no but also I cannot say yes.

I just realize I love the church so much.

I do really learn a lot from those JDSN, personality, love god...

Thank You, Dear JDSN.^o^

I told Jeeyoung today I wanna be a nice person.

She asked me WHY?

WHY? WHY do I want to be a nice person?

I got nothing to say, because I don't have the reason.

Maybe...

Steve JDSN said I should learn the Bible,

then I could know and understand everything about GOD,

GOD will give me the answer I need.

However......

Steve JDSN asked us why we need to go to school?

If we don't go to school, can we get everything we want?

Actually, I think about this question many times before.

Why do I have to go to school?

Can I just stay at home do anything I want?

I didn't get the answer, even today.

However, the only thing I could make sure is that

if I told my parents I want to drop out of the school or stay at home

they will kick me out >_<

maybe disengage our relationship@_@

Actually, Since I watched One tree Hill, I've learned a lot from this drama. Love, Friendship...

One tree hill is just a place somewhere in the world. Maybe it's like your place. Maybe it's nothing like it. But if you look closer, you might see someone likes you.

Someone trying to find their way.

Someone trying to find their place.

Someone trying to find themselves.

For me, I don't know if I need to find myself. Maybe I should.

Everyone sometimes always lose themselves. They cannot find what they want. Just so, human being are regrettably. Meanwhile human being are lucky.

Pablo Picasso said before "Action is the foundational key to all success."

Most of people realize this point.

Men always striving for their family,parents always striving for their children and someone always striving for themselves...

They all want to be successful. However, people, you are human, not androids. You need to take a break. Please don't let those green power glamour  you.You need smile, happy and rest.Or you will never find yourself.

Stop thinking about people,

Stop thinking about life,

Stop thinking about anything...

Just like Steve said

nobody knows what we are thinking in our head.

Actually, I even don't know myself~

but anyway~I only need to be myself, that's enough!

Spanish is really hard for me? I hate Spanish!

I cannot believe I fail again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need to talk to some Spanish people!

Gosh!

Nick is really a good language learner,

he knows six languages including Spanish!

He told me Spanish is sooooooooooooo easy!!!!!!!!!

What the hell? Am I so stupid?

SIGN!

I hope I could pass this subject!

I wish I did not very bad on the second marking period!

Even though, I realize I cut so many classes!

God bless me~please......

Should I go to church tomorrow for thanksgiving dinner?

I wanna go but I don't wanna go also~

confused~~~~~~

anyway~again!

Happy Thanksgiving, Everybody!

SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wrote soooo many things, but ~~~BOO!everything disappear.............

anyway, write again~

I wanna say "thank you " to Jeeyoung, my best friend on senior year.

I wish we could still connect with each other until we become old.

I know we will!!!

I love Steve JDSN soooooooooo much!

he is really a nice guy!

soooooooo nice!

we had a talk yesterday~

we were talking about love, god, stars and school life and family~

it was really fun.

I think we will have another talk after SAT.~~lol~ sooo happy~

I think I'm really a lucky girl~

since I came to America, I met a lot of nice people~

Steve JDSN, Kevin, Chris...

they helped me a lot and taught me a lot~

I really want to say" Thank you" to those people~

I love our church sooo much~ and I got a new Bible yesterday~

haha~

today is a happy day~just like yesterday~^o^